I will never, ever sit here and say, 'Oh my God, I'm so confident now, I love myself', because I don't.

I must consider myself as the man of the cross and love the one that God gives me without thinking any further.

Today I love myself as I love my god: who could charge me with a sin today? I know only sins against my god; but who knows my god?

Allowing myself to love God completely has obviously shed light on my self-love because he loves me more than I could ever love myself.

It's been a constant struggle with my athletic career to identify myself as a child of God and understand that His love is unconditional for us; it's not conditional like fans, or coaches, or even myself.

The winter of 1991 found me stunned and shivering in the aftermath of an imploded love affair. Being 26, I flung myself actorishly on London and, without any intimations of my own ludicrousness, spent two years showing God what I thought of Him by letting myself go.

With all the media attention, all the love from the fans, I felt I needed to prove myself. Prove that I'm not a marketing tool, I'm not a ploy to improve attendance. Prove I can play in this league. But I've surrendered that to God. I'm not in a battle with what everybody else thinks anymore.

I needed to take a break from acting, because I really idolized it. So I came off from it, and I went on a journey to discover my relationship with God, and I became a Christian. It really just gave me so much love and light within myself. I felt secure, like I didn't need validation from anyone else, or getting a part.

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